Shade

I was scared, scared of something 

Something that I hadn’t met before

It’s been a long time, a long time since

I started to escape from the haunting nightmare

Yeah, who knows? Who knows this daydreaming girl

Wasn’t running forward but just running away?

 I was stupid, I admit and won’t forget 

My shameful memories with tears and beers

I was searching something that’s over my fear

And I did believe that we were something 

But it turned into nothing

Nothing to do with you and me

You seemed no hope at all

‘Cause you fought with not me but my ghost

You loved to stay under the shade of me but not with me 

Cried for help for someone else

‘Cause you didn’t see me

It was a lovely summer day like this

Something had started to change and went wrong

Still I’ve been fighting and standing between

My shade made by expectations and invisible myself 

Yeah you know, you know a perfect girl lives only in a fantasy world 

So why are you still clinging to such a pipe dream?

And it turned into nothing 

Nothing to do with you and me

You might thought no hope at all

’Cause you adored not me but my ghost

You toyed with me just to use like a pretty little doll

Cried for help like a tantrum kid

’Cause you didn’t see me

If you could see me, something was different 

If you were more careful, it would be better

You should’ve known there’s no perfect in this world 

Yeah I shoud’ve known...

‘Cause it turned into nothing 

Nothing to do with me and past

It seemed no hope at all

’Cause I tried everything only under my shade

I loved myself having a smile on the mirrored screen but it’s fake

Cried for help with whispered scream

’Cause I didn’t see me

I was haunted by my ghost not others 

But from my shade I would go out to the outside

To get the sunlight to let myself be shown

I would show my scars like a champion ring

No matter what they say, they can’t catch me anymore 

‘Cause I can see me now

And you can see me now